Dun Dun Dun...

Well I am less than two weeks away (11 days to be exact) from Hercules Bayside Beatdown aka my first crossfit competition. Heat times have been released and seeing my name on that list made it REAL. I'm now anxiously awaiting the release of the WOD's on Sunday. I spent all day yesterday beating myself up for how I spent Thanksgiving weekend (eating and not working out) but I'm back in the swing of things and I'm feeling pretty good in the gym. I've worried for weeks if I was truly ready to jump into this competition. But you know what, it is what it is. When I signed up for it I was doing it purely for the experience, a push out of my comfort zone, to try something new. And I have to remember that. Sure I want to do well but I'm also being realistic. I'm trying to focus on being excited about the experience, about moving forward in crossfit. I've been at CFS since April, I'm not great at every movement, I still hate getting upside down, and forward rolls scare me (LOL) but without a doubt I am stronger, I  am determined, and I am more confident.

Don't get me wrong, I'm scared shitless about this comp but I'm ready to get it done!

Crunch Time

Hercules Bayside Beatdown is getting closer and closer. I'm already starting to get nervous. I mean I'm nervous right before a wod on a daily basis, I can't imagine how I'm going to feel day of the competition. I haven't really been doing a ton of extra work in the gym, and I should probably step my game up in that regard. But I have been trying to push myself harder in the daily wods. Not letting the bar drop as soon as I feel a little pain or fatigued, but push through those moments. Run a little faster, less rest, heavier weight, even if it takes me longer. As much as my body needs to be stronger, my mind needs to be also. I don't always give myself enough credit and sometimes my mind gives up on me long before my body every would.

I'm glad I chose to compete, to put myself out there and be a little more involved. To give myself a goal to work towards. I'm going to have to push myself out of my comfort zone though, I'm going to have to give more these next few weeks than just an hour in the gym each day. Because I want to see myself succeed.

It's the little things that continue to encourage me to push harder. Example, last night I was pulling my hair back into a ponytail so my arms/shoulders were somewhat flexed and Steve said to me, "wow your shoulders are getting big." Best compliment ever! Lol. Its's true though, to be told I look/am strong, muscles are getting bigger, that pumps me up every time. It's crazy to see how my journey has changed over the last two years. My day 1 goal was to lose weight and be skinny. Now I just want to be strong.